Spin, Click, Spin

I'm starting to think that I really may need to be medicated for this. I'm not sure that my behavior is 'within therapeutic limits' or whatever lately. But I don't have health insurance, so it's really a bit of a mote point. Maybe I should be more careful with myself.

But I am becoming more self-sufficient. It's been kind of a hard fight, actually, this emotional independence thing. But I really think I'm getting there. That, or I've just been getting high a lot recently.

Which ever.

I feel like my number is up soon, though. Do you know what I mean? You can only live like this without consequences for so long. Then sooner or later, when you put the gun to your head and pull the trigger, you loose. I just have a feeling.