But more importantly, I woke up this morning... I can't explain it, really. But I had something for a little while, and then it went away. I knew something, for just a little bit. It felt like... I was able to see my whole life without actually having to see it, and was able to see the direction, the meaning of it. But greater than that, I understood where my life fit into the big picture of all my families lives, and where it fit into the whole world. Like, my place in the universe, but more than that... like, my ultimate whatever. It was such a calming feeling, to understand. To understand transcendently, I guess.
It wasn't a big deal. But it was good, I mean, it felt good.
I woke up meditating, actually. If thats totally possible. I had actually forgotten how I used to do it, just cause I haven't done it in so long. But yeah, I woke up doing it, and it all came back to me. I'm really happy about it, I actually really miss that feeling.
What woke me was the phone ringing. The damn thing kept ringing off the hook. Every five minutes it would go off. I finally picked it up, and the line played this weird, unearthy sound a few times- it kind of sounded like a guitar chord or something, then the line went to the "if you'd like to make a call, please hang up and try again..." recording. It made the hair on the back of my neck stand up.
I'd like to dedicate my intention for tomorrow to writing a damn good paper and having a nice day followed by a sound sleep. Love.
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